讀到梵谷, 我還是有落不完的淚.....

Van Gogh’s Paysage sous un ciel mouvementé

梵谷給弟弟的信 描述一個風景的美
像一個美麗的愛人

就算幾年前我寫了一本他的自畫像的書
走過他走過的足跡
看過他的這麼多的作品

如今
每次看到梵谷的作品
讀他的信
我還是有落不完的淚......

常常我看到美的風景  驚歎的好興奮
但卻啞口無言
說不出來
然而梵谷的文字
梵谷的繪畫
他幫我鋪陳好了
早就描繪出來了

聽聽 Charles Dance 念的梵谷寫給弟弟的信, 描述這張他正在畫的景象....

My dear Theo,

I already wrote to you early this morning, then I went out to continue working on a painting of a sunny garden. Then I brought it back — and went out again with a blank canvas and that’s done, too. And now I feel like writing to you again.

My great sorrow is that you cannot see what I see here. Nature here is extraordinarily beautiful. The dome of the sky is a wonderful blue, the sun has a pale sulphur radiance, and it’s soft and charming, like the combination of celestial blues and yellows in paintings by Vermeer of Delft. I can’t paint as beautifully as that, but it absorbs me so much that I let myself go without thinking about any rule.

Today I worked from 7 o’clock in the morning until 6 o’clock in the evening without moving except to eat a bite a stone’s throw away. And that’s why the work’s going fast.

But what will you say about it — how will it seem to me, too, some time from now?

At the moment I have a clear head, or a lover's blindness toward my work. Because being surrounded by colour like this is quite new to me, and excites me extraordinarily. 

Ah, my dear brother, sometimes I know so clearly what I want in life and in painting too. I can easily do without the dear Lord, but I can't, suffering as I do, do without something greater than myself, which is my life, the power to create. 

If you cannot see the beautiful day here, you will still see the painting of it.

Ever yours,

Vincent